shivering with fear
ignorant of my state
crumbling with shame that’s too great
those holes in my veins
show me the hollowness
that i have carved
for 3 months
i let the elixir feed on me
consume a part of me
it was ecstasy
now, it is but fantasy
i was locked behind the cell of delusion
now i know, it is not even as gracious as an illusion
i tried to forget myself
surrendering myself
to my almighty in the bottle
locking myself behind the dark steel bars
to serve a sentence of numbness
the needle of syringe
gave me new blood
that ruled my nerves
i was soaked in the blood
of this painless pain
mourning for the disgrace i have become
my stomach groped
can i get one more doze?
July 02, 2009
inject my pain
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ur about me says that ur writings reflect u...if that applies for this post too then Pls tc of urself dear! and get over the pain!
regards always!
Pulkit
hey.. i knew there were good chances that ppl might think.. that its a personal experiece.. that i've shared... through this writing.. well. i kinda draw inspiration from the book 'shantaram'.. the guy in that book.. actually.. goes through this.. so.. well.. i kina put myself into his shoes n.. hence this writing.. took birth..
well, I first had a feeling that it was your personal experience that inspired you.. I mean, the 3 months you are talking bout.. anyways, now I get it..
seing your point of view, I’m able to understand it better.. reading myself, Shantaram, that’s why..
good write..
quite a heavy one.. to be honest it went off my head...scholars like Pulkit can only undestand this..
where d hell did it come from?
It reminds me of sum special lines i wr0te b0ut pain l0ng back..d0nt remember dem ryt n0w..buh i gues i reck0n 0l diz as d extacy f facin pain wen uv had enuff 0f it 2 fal in luv wid it.....................
@ sindu - sorry for being stupid to draw conclusions and all way too early dear!
sorry for that!
have read shantaram and now I got the association of linbaba with it too along the verses, in between the lines :)
I Think that book is one of the finest I have ever read !!
Its very intellectual and very realistic!
If I ever go to mumbai for a day or two, I would like to meet gregory personally too!
I have heard he meets many readers on sundays in the cafetaria that he made immortal in his book :)
and I dont know whther people like karla exist in this country but I am sure I would love to meet one such girl ever if I get a chance
keep writing sindu!
tc god bless!
loved the work
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