tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-65107306170194548062023-06-15T04:24:21.454-07:00mystiquecastleownersinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-42679818034636258712010-09-18T01:53:00.000-07:002010-09-18T01:53:40.787-07:00let it flowAs those drops fall<br />
<br />
<br />
I thank the rain god<br />
<br />
How sublimely it says, sorrow never stays<br />
<br />
Livid air<br />
<br />
And a few drops<br />
<br />
Whisper in my ears <br />
<br />
I am there <br />
<br />
Creating warmth<br />
<br />
I hadn’t felt for long<br />
<br />
Wrapping me in his assurance<br />
<br />
Nothing lasts forever<br />
<br />
Drains the pain in me<br />
<br />
Those wounds wont bleed now<br />
<br />
Now that horizon looks like<br />
<br />
A sheath of protection<br />
<br />
Closing up on me<br />
<br />
Breathing<br />
<br />
Now I can give out a sigh <br />
<br />
Cry<br />
<br />
The swaying air cradles my soul<br />
<br />
Putting those fears to sleep<br />
<br />
Once again<br />
<br />
Will it rain?<br />
<br />
Become my tearssinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-80598647980319517432010-07-12T23:26:00.001-07:002010-07-12T23:26:35.133-07:00square garden<div class="MsoNormal">Step by step</div><div class="MsoNormal">I walk the path</div><div class="MsoNormal">That squares the garden</div><div class="MsoNormal">The step increases the speed</div><div class="MsoNormal">To escape slumber</div><div class="MsoNormal">To burn another calorie</div><div class="MsoNormal">To fuel the heartbeat</div><div class="MsoNormal">The source- the garden</div><div class="MsoNormal">Which is over brimming with life</div><div class="MsoNormal">The kid there knows what life is</div><div class="MsoNormal">The mother playing with him knows how life is</div><div class="MsoNormal">The person walking behind me knows</div><div class="MsoNormal">How many more kilometers to walk</div><div class="MsoNormal">I see people walking ahead of me</div><div class="MsoNormal">I slow down not to to overtake them</div><div class="MsoNormal">But I know how it feels to lag behind</div><div class="MsoNormal">I go green seeing the grass so lean</div><div class="MsoNormal">I long to be a baby sitting </div><div class="MsoNormal">The one over the grass</div><div class="MsoNormal">So ignorant</div><div class="MsoNormal">I crave to take a moment and lie on the grass</div><div class="MsoNormal">Gasp a breath of air</div><div class="MsoNormal">To exorcise me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Exhume the soul dormant inside me</div><div class="MsoNormal">But alas, my legs hate to stop</div><div class="MsoNormal">Its taken its path</div><div class="MsoNormal">The stones that square the garden</div><div class="MsoNormal">That borders life</div><div class="MsoNormal">Confines happiness</div><div class="MsoNormal">In the nature to its inside</div><div class="MsoNormal">Its mundane outside</div><div class="MsoNormal">Where people drive and shout</div><div class="MsoNormal">When the sun blocking glasses</div><div class="MsoNormal">Blind them to see the pristine spring</div><div class="MsoNormal">The aged chat of years of glory</div><div class="MsoNormal">Live every moment of their life</div><div class="MsoNormal">That shall soon cease</div><div class="MsoNormal">My legs can’t stop</div><div class="MsoNormal">My eyes hate to blink</div><div class="MsoNormal">For it craves for that fling</div><div class="MsoNormal">Those two kids have</div><div class="MsoNormal">For minutes in their game</div><div class="MsoNormal">My legs go fatigue</div><div class="MsoNormal">Yet they walk like a headless man</div><div class="MsoNormal">For its path shall never change</div><div class="MsoNormal">I walk on that path</div><div class="MsoNormal">Regretting every moment</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have miles to go before I blink </div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh, I have miles to go to burn those calories</div>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-48970409112197860942010-06-16T10:33:00.000-07:002010-06-27T10:43:24.109-07:00<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its something i wrote on 28th nov.... after a lot of moving news about the Taj attach and its effects on 'innocent' people's lives</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">My mortality take me home</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Away with my music my sagging spirit</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">My nations mourns for all the deaths</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But it doesn’t move</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Shake us all</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">So that we may live as brothers</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Show us all how it feels when your son doesn’t return home</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">When you just know that he is not well</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Don’t know if he is dead or hurt</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">We sympathize but never empathize</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Curse but never redress</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">We don’t even see others’ ‘grief</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">What if we were a part of it?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Am I not now?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">So numb, dormant and indifferent</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Would this stone ever move?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Or will it when it sees everyone else down in blood</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Your ignorance’s fruit</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">What are we here for?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Sit back and watch the sea of death and demise and condole</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Wouldn’t you move my nation?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">We are liberated, independent</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But not yet alive</span></span></span><o:p></o:p></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-9589372932266364372010-06-10T10:16:00.001-07:002010-06-10T10:16:54.538-07:00turning pointThis is my turning point on my journey<br />Where I have to turn, bend<br />They say that it is the way<br />For that is the way everyone takes<br />It is the road that has been beaten up by every foot<br />No stone left unturned<br />Yet no one dares to walk the other way<br />This is the turning point<br />Which would turn my life<br />From mine to theirs<br />Transfer its identity to match the mob<br />It is no more an entity<br />Lose its gravity to walk on the ground<br />The way everybody does<br />This is my turning point<br />Which will bend me until<br />I breaksinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-80848198326720468602010-06-10T10:14:00.000-07:002010-06-27T10:45:04.951-07:00losers' paradise<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Welcome to losers’ paradise</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Where everybody is alike</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Long faces, pumpkin expression</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Anger frustration</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Dejection and pity</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Under confidence, no confidence</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Tears, fears</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Blue purple black</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Blank shameful dark</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">No one thinking anything except</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">That moment of fiasco</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">The tape stuck on that scene</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">No one knows who is sitting next</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">The one who does sees the worst</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">One from nowhere stood up</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">‘what have we lost that we are in so much pain?’</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">(Unanimous unspoken voices- what not?)</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Cuz no pain no gain</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">So welcome to losers’ paradise</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Where losing is a game</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">We all are shameless winners</span></span></span><o:p></o:p></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-70364550637123026222010-04-25T13:36:00.000-07:002010-04-25T13:39:28.964-07:00Lend me a drop of tearLend me a drop of tear<br />I need to cry<br />Break this silence <br />It’s a pain<br />That only I can feel<br />Now I want to break down<br />It’s too heavy to keep within<br />I’ll give up my pride<br /> I can’t stride<br />With blind thoughts<br />And blinding vision<br />It’s difficult to cry<br />What if I do?<br />Afraid to fall<br />For I’ll never get up<br />Too willing to implode and get buried<br />Under my debris of sorrow<br />Is there a drop of tear I can borrow?<br />Now they are drying<br />Spirit of meaning<br />Is there a drop of tear I can borrow?<br />To burry my sorrow<br />Let their ghost explain the pain<br />Or will the tears go in vain?sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-37663286457272756062010-01-10T10:36:00.000-08:002010-01-10T10:39:13.447-08:00where do i begin?As the world moves round<br />Around me<br />The clock moves around<br />Sages preach the art of living<br />I sit and listen<br />Inspired<br />Afraid to perspire<br />But I am still tired<br />I read history of great men<br />Too impressed<br />Still feeling suppressed<br />Yes, too many here are depressed<br />It’s so futile<br />The roads so beaten up<br />Dreams so clichéd<br />Yours and mine<br />Differ yet meet<br />At the end of the road<br />Few reach<br />Others preach<br />Where do I begin?<br />How do I end?<br />It’s not out of your reach<br />it’s from where it all begins<br />The answer lies withinsinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-67277073667429628352009-07-21T22:37:00.000-07:002009-07-21T22:51:18.742-07:00burried myselfNow in the coffin<br />where it’s only me<br />no one to even mourn<br />I mourn with remorse<br />am I so worthless?<br />Or am I denied of my worth?<br />Am I alive<br />or as good as dead?<br />Should I live<br />or hide in the coffin?<br />To hide myself<br />should I grieve or go numb?<br />Dig inside to find myself<br />or keep digging to find more dirt?<br />Light a candle and see light<br />or burn myself<br />till my ashes disappear?<br /><br /><br />I fell so worthless<br />my veins shrink with shame<br />I’ll never be the same<br />now it’s given me a new name<br />but as I sit here in the coffin<br />I realize, I’d better lie down there<br />so that no one can find me anywheresinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-39191263983094528852009-07-21T22:20:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:06:31.697-07:00pray, my love<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Pray, please</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">somebody save my love</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">he is dying in my brutal love</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I love you too much</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">You loved me a little less</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I held your arms...</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Didn’t know</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">they'd leave scars...</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I kissed u...</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">not knowing they'll burn you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I clenched to you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">when you'd begin to go</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I tore my heart to show</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my love inside</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">oh, I realize now, it was only mine</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">not ours</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">pray, please</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my love is dying</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">stop! the gruesome me is unleashing</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to tear his heart to see if there was ever any love</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">pray , my lord</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my love, talk to me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I haven’t killed u yet</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">wont you?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Look at me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">am I so unworthy?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Pray, my love, save me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I’ll save you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">pray my love...</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Love me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I still love you...</span></span></span><o:p></o:p></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-43459200683332555712009-07-02T09:26:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:06:50.184-07:00inject my pain<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">shivering with fear</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">ignorant of my state</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">crumbling with shame that’s too great</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">those holes in my veins</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">show me the hollowness</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that i have carved</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for 3 months</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i let the elixir feed on me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">consume a part of me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it was ecstasy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">now, it is but fantasy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i was locked behind the cell of delusion</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">now i know, it is not even as gracious as an illusion</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i tried to forget myself</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">surrendering myself</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to my almighty in the bottle</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">locking myself behind the dark steel bars</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to serve a sentence of numbness</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the needle of syringe</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">gave me new blood</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that ruled my nerves</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i was soaked in the blood</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">of this painless pain</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">mourning for the disgrace i have become</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my stomach groped</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">can i get one more doze?</span></span></span><o:p></o:p></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-77345764367424580932009-07-02T09:16:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:07:08.326-07:00laconic indolence<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;tab-stops:165.0pt"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">this emptiness is beyond my understanding</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its too empty to mean a thing</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">solemnly pitying my stance</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that embodies the crucified heart</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">tears fail to drown the misery</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">they just make it more unexplainable</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">satanic curses fill my ears</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">yet, they too cry tears</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for there is no meaning for this fear</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">given up the only life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">giving into living without life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">how can time fly</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its frozen</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">indolence denudes it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">inside there is a larva of blood</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">wanting to flow</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to wash this futility</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">ripe this cesspool of ugly graffiti</span></span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="Georgia","serif";font-family:";color:black;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-39842921879566305262009-06-23T08:31:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:07:38.489-07:00CLOSING NOTE<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;tab-stops:165.0pt"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">read this when i am only a jar of ashes</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i just wish i was there to see</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">how much you cried</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">when you saw that i was gone</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but if i did</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i wouldn't have been in bliss then</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">without answering your question</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">WHY?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i don’t have an answer</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i don’t have answers</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for all the questions life was asking me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i didn’t see life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i wanted to see it dead</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i took the knife</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but i put it down</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it was yours</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i can't even die</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the thought was killing me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i took the gun</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i can't even afford a bullet</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">'what a pity!' mocked my life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">starvation was killing me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but it didn’t help me die</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">why?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Cry</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i tied a rope around my neck</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it was hurting</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">what if i was alive to see myself die?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">so i took the poison</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it refused to go down my throat</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">into my begging stomach</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i dissolved it with the potion of your love and hate</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it gulped my life with ease</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">do cry for me once, truly, please</span></span></span><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;color:black;"><o:p></o:p></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-27302945794894658392009-05-22T21:57:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:03:22.258-07:00everybody-hate me<div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i see an ugly face in the mirror<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that hates to see me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i hate you, i hate me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">do hate me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">slap the cheek<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">oh, i hate it, it’s a sin<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">spit on the face ,<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">help, is there no grace<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i hate to be me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i wish no one could see me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">no one should be me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">baptize me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">oh no, i am a pagan<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i have no Christ<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i have no church<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">now m in a search<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for a mask<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for no one should see<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">this ugly skin<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">am such a filthy din<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">no face, only grimace<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cant face my face<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cant face my fate<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">how long will i wait<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to meet my fate<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">burn my face<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">with an acid and glare<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">spread the ashes on holy grave<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and let them see my ugly gaze<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">change my name<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i can’t be me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i can’t show no mercy<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal"><span style="font-family:"Georgia","serif";mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";mso-bidi-Times New Roman";font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">if its only on me</span><o:p></o:p></span></p></div>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-72196819553617924722009-05-22T21:48:00.001-07:002009-05-22T21:57:23.497-07:00take me<div>come here, look through me</div> <div>do u see a heart?</div> <div>do u see a soul?</div> <div>or a decaying body?</div> <div>m alive, can you hear me?</div> <div>m divine, do u know me?</div> <div>talk to me, you'll know all</div> <div>m your gift, take me</div> <div>if u don't like me, throw me</div> <div>don't throw me</div> <div>feed me, I've starved enough</div> <div>touch me, I've been numb all this while</div> <div>lets walk.. m no more lame</div> <div>m your gift, take me</div> <div>give me a name, I've never had one..</div> <div>hurt me, cuz I've never cried</div> <div>smile at me, I'll smile back, I've never smiled</div> <div>come here, i am alive</div> <div>can you hear me??</div>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-91595055097000805282009-04-30T13:00:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:02:12.249-07:00my prayer's fate<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Where does the prayer that i send go?</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to the air so thin</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">or the lord i can’t see</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">is it heard or dismissed as unworthy?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">or is my prayer scared to speak its purpose?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the eyes look out for a company</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to find if there is a purpose for it to blink</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my sanity rethinks its futility</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my insanity relishes its penance with gaiety</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">my prayer flies with wings of hope</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the beam of the envious sun cuts them</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to see the prayer fall on earth</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that already has many a dead</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the rain knows that pain</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for the sun celebrates its defeat too</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">with the rainbow</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the rain </span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">knows </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that pain</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it sheds tears on the dead prayer</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">performs its last rites</span></span></span><o:p></o:p></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-38347739863786072822009-04-04T09:04:00.000-07:002009-04-04T09:11:04.559-07:00light and brokenI am light, I am broken<br />I am happy, but I am breaking<br />Corroding easily<br />Meekly<br />I am numb, comfortably<br />I am dragging myself to a nowhere<br />I can’t see that there is life everywhere<br />It fails to show up in front of me<br />I am in ease<br />Because the pain in me<br />Vents by oozing blood when it dissects me<br />Bit by bit<br /> Unknowingly<br />It’s given me anesthesia<br />Before it ate my heart away<br />And I am numb,<br />I don’t even realize<br />I am hallucinated<br />Hallucination of hope<br />That will betray me<br />My heart is raped<br />But it’s light<br />Still beating, bleeding<br />For some reason unknownsinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-47605432051597870502009-04-04T08:56:00.000-07:002010-06-27T11:01:31.077-07:00nightblindness<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I sleep to forget my fears<br />My fears that keep me awake for nights<br />I lie to find myself among the dead<br />I close my eyes to go blind<br />But then my eyes see the hell unleash itself<br />I grip my hands to pray<br />But the prayer corrodes in this air of uncertainty<br />There is a word stuck in my throat<br />That fears to come out<br />What if it came out only to be swallowed?<br />What if it came out only to find itself alone in the darkness?<br />The word is ‘help’<br />That is so helpless<br />I lie prostrate to dig someone who can give company<br />I am scared to look at either side<br />I wrap myself in a blanket<br />Like a shroud<br />Yet I am barely protected<br />I burry myself inside it<br />Yet I feel so naked<br />I shut my eyes to go bind<br />But I can see the grim reaper approaching<br />I breathe in<br />But I am scared to breathe out<br />What if my assassin finds me?<br />The next day I learnt<br />I am my own vicarious assassin</span>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-757400459715627322009-03-24T06:57:00.000-07:002010-06-27T10:59:55.364-07:00sleeping in me<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i stood there to say goodbye</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">not knowing you were going forever</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">even your smile promised me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that it would see me again</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but your shadow told me that you were going away, forever</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">you asked me to breathe instead</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">leaving you in me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">you chose to leave this world</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to find a better place for us to live together</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but you didn’t tell me where you were going</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i don’t know where you are</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">neither do i know where i am</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">all i know of you is the you in me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that is lying asleep</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">sleep of the night that shall never cease</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">you were lying blue</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i stood there next to you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i tried to breathe</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">even when i was smothered</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">hoping to bring you to life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i held your hand</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">hoping the warmth warms you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but you lied cold there</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i thought you were alive</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i still could see you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">still could feel you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i wept</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">hoping it moves you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">you lied cold and blue</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i wish i could join my heart to yours</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and pump blood</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for you are in me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i lied beside you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and spoke to you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">of all those happy days</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">just to wake you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but you lied motionless, dead</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i could hear my echo</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">saying i love you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it faded away</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that’s when i realized</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">you had died next to me</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-35076954480313957952009-03-24T06:48:00.000-07:002010-06-27T10:58:32.528-07:00<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">sometime you feel so low</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">like never before</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">as if fallen from zenith</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">doesn’t take a moment</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to lose everything</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">all that was earned</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">all that was yours</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it breaks, shatters you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">burns the 'you' in you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">shows you the bitter true picture</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">brings you to reality</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">shows the meaning lurking behind the curtains</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">just to take over the stage and dance</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the most cruel feast in front of you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">you are the only one in the audience</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and your story being enacted</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but you are not a part of it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its not in your hands</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the play doesn’t end</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it won’t show you light</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but show nuances, all that was missed</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">from being caged to crucified</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">from being loved and hated by the same</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">from being me to only me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">all is dramatized</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">life is a stage, we are no actors</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">just mere spectators</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-53242438861637459062009-02-28T05:06:00.000-08:002010-06-27T11:04:18.963-07:00falling apart<p></p><p><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">m falling apart,<br />my brain being butchered<br />my heart being stamped,<br />soul being looked down at<br />what’s left in me?<br />sorrows and tears<br />who wants it anyways<br />yet people think m rich they come to borrow some<br />how do i look?<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p style="margin-bottom:12.0pt"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">blissful??<br />m empty<br />bereaved of my sanity<br />orphaned at soul<br />m standing still<br />cuz i don’t know where to go<br />i dare not keep a step forward<br />what lies there, m scared<br />people crowding around push me<br />to a somewhere i don’t want to be<br />even if they are humane,<br />i don’t believe it<br />cuz they showed their stone hard heart<br />a while back<br />come on!<br />now u come to condole<br />for a death u caused</span><o:p></o:p></span></p><p></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-51274783786023292992009-02-18T03:52:00.000-08:002010-06-27T10:56:47.923-07:00drowning in your lies<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">m drowning in your sea of lies</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that u said was a lake of love</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">u fed me with the potion of your bitter lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">n i grew listening to your lullaby of lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that put me to deep sleep</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">wake i never could</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">from that sleep until</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the lies crushed me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">u saw yourself in the mirror - so full of lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but when the mirror didn’t lie</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">u said it did</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">u spoke the lies so truthfully</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i didn’t believe in the truth</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i thought u were the truth</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">u coated those lies with syrup of deceptive sweetness</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that made me comatose</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">m drowning i your sea of lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that u said was the pond of trust</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">trust i did, but on you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the mirror cracked</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">ashamed to see you in it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but u said u broke it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">for it lied to you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i built my mountain of trust on you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">kept you at its tip</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i didn’t understand the truth- the lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">couldn’t even ask ' why me??'</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but hate myself for being the fooled</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i kept you at the mountains tip</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but u pushed me down to the sea</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">m drowning in your sea of lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and drinking your spirited lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it nourished my bond with you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but you let me drown in your sea of lies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that does not even have a drop of truth</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-71874899813350962492009-02-12T21:32:00.000-08:002010-06-27T10:55:48.310-07:00poisonous elixir<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i drink d elixir</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">which is poison</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its sweet,</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its quenching</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the thirst of my fears</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">its a fuel for my heart to pump..</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">pump the blood full of sin</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">to liven the artery..</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">in which my fate runs</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it flows astringent on the wounds</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that burns like acid</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it moistens the corpse to spread decay</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it sprinkles life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">life to dormant worms of gloom</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">it blooms flowers</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">flowers of hemp</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and ripe them into wine of hemlock</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i drink the saccharine elixir</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">which is a cure for my sickness</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i drink the omened elixir</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">which kills my disease with me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i drank the thirsty elixir</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">that quenched its thirst for my death</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-575767057059532632009-01-31T05:32:00.000-08:002010-06-27T10:54:28.936-07:00tenacious illusion<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I love you</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">That’s all I wanted to say</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But now I have more than words to give you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I have been waiting for you so long</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">That you will come someday</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Where have you been</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Didn’t you ever see me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Oh! you never knew me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But I had all these time</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Been thinking of you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Fancied you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Dreamt of you n me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Happy together forever</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">How nice it used to feel you know</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Even now</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">The memories tingle</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Sweet n kindling</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But u never knew it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Nor do u know how deep you have reached…within me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I always thought of your lill smile.. then I was under a spell…</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Lost n rapt</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Doped in your memories</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I never could come out of it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Nor did I ever want to….</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I knew you were never mine…</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I still do..</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But still I couldn’t stop myself</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Some foolish hope in me never dies</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">It says magics happen</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Though it shall never</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But I get convinced</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I wanted to</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">So I didn’t resist</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Its overtaken me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I have lost myself deep in</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Its insane</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I can never understand</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Its an illusion</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">That’s fooling me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But I don’t mind being one for you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I have walked the lonely road with you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">A thousand times</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">U never spoke</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Cuz u were never there</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I was a paranoid</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I jabbered and blabbed all the way…</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">To empty air</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">.. but I can’t blame you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Come on! You don’t even know me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I have felt you next to me on my bed</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I have curled in your arms so many times</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">You have whispered in my ears so many times’ I love you’</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">But u never heard me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">When I touched you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">You never felt me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">M I mad</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I must be</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I asked you</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">You never said anything</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">You just left me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Leaving me alone in..</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">My world </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">(didn’t even say good bye)</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-12947463586435260132008-11-01T23:58:00.000-07:002010-06-27T10:53:35.385-07:00insight overview<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">today, i once again stand on the lonely road, in the shadows, hiding away from light.. this</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">often happens with me...i don’t know why?? But it’s the only time when my brains think.. it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">functions, tries to find out the meaning of life , the purpose r the lack of it...but then..</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i never come to a conclusion...it just keeps circling round and round.. n m at the same</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">position once again... i don’t feel good about myself. Actually.. i don’t feel good about</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">anything...its full of self hatred.. Glutting me.. it’s like a kid sitting in the corner of</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">a dark room..face down n hiding away.. in owns own shell of complete vacuum..Hoping some1</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">will come and rescue, bring some air along to help me breathe again n live.. but then.. the</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">moment i see some1 around.. i wipe away those tears, put a fake smile.. a disguising</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">mask...n pretend to be just fine.. no one notices my inside.. my bleeding heart..should i be</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">happy r sad about it?? don’t know.. you feel so worthless.. so heavy with your own weight , u</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">just can’t get up..it pulls u like a magnet, the strongest , it buries u.. but u still don’t</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">die. but u cry. my brain cant perceive anything.. it’s like a beheaded man..walking..how?</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">why? .. no clue..lifeless??... can’t really say.. not actually understand.. since a lifeless</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">shall never come to life again.. unlike me. d dawn does break in my world too..but it just</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">makes me a fool.. it knows it’s easy making me 1... when m buried.. people come and</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">mourn..place a bouquet n go.. not noticing that m alive.. the heart is beating.. "may d soul</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">rest in peace" they say...i wish they said- may the heart die and vanish away.. leaving no</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">trace behind.. like it never did when alive.....</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510730617019454806.post-3714643758154988212008-10-11T23:34:00.000-07:002010-06-27T10:52:50.248-07:00immortal words<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the words that go unspoken</span></span></span><span style="font-family:";"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">are the one that actually speak</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the one that u really meant louder</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">could be obscure</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">could be bandy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">they come direct from the core , raw</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and crave to be heard</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but gets buried deep in a grave</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but still haunting your mind</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">some hide it to be seen</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">some not to hurt others</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">some just don’t get the right word to bang the feel out</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">the feeling is like a blob of emotions</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">soon may become a blot</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but it may just keep u in the dumps</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">so wake up</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">do count on them</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but don’t kill them</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cuz they are meant to be herd</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">being blunt is no sin</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">at least its not that sharp</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">i know i shouldn’t be saying them</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cuz me is the 1st one to do it</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">but a wise advise</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">don’t be me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cuz i know how good it is not to be me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">just blurt out what u don’t want to</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cuz these are soon forgotten, forgiven</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">and in the end leaves u in ease</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">may be not that easy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">do make an effort</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">make sure u r not blacking out someone else’s emotions</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">be wise with your words</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">even a dumb has his own language</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">so why let yourself </span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">in blues</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">or show invisible with blues</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">so don’t be dumb</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;"><br /></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">cuz dumb words immortal</span></span></span></p>sinduhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17591332886025373785noreply@blogger.com2